I'm not good at DMing, but I don't think they really care... do I quit? [closed]

Question

So I've been doing some thinking and essentially realized I'm a garbage DM. I am literally the embodiment of Railroading and unwillingness to listen to their wishes. I love my lore way too much and get major ideas of how I want things to go and struggle to give room.

Hard part is... they don't really care that I do this. But what I mean is that maybe one of them is 100x better than me. In which case they should be doing it, not me! I mean I can see that there are definitely things they dislike about me. One guy in particular, I think, is spurred on a little by the Matt Mercer effect.

But I'm at a crossing, we are finishing a campaign I'm very disappointed in. The end became very clear and destined over time. They have started making their new characters and are getting excited to play my next story. But all I see is me failing them again. Do I take it into my hands and quit for their sake, or torture myself again as I realise I'll never change and mess it up again?

Or am I just selfish by wanting to give up on them?

Answer 1

They are excited to play the next campaign with you at the helm - you have succeeded.

RPGs are about fun. It's in the name. Game. I can't imagine a scenario where nobody had fun and wanted to commit to another adventure with you. In this respect, you have been a successful DM. Given these things, you definitely shouldn't be so hard on yourself. A good DM is the one who effectively fosters a fun environment at the table. If you achieve this while completely railroading everything, that's great! Some people prefer that style of play - the only right way to play a game is the fun way. You said it yourself, "they don't really care that I do this". I understand this to mean something more like, "they are perfectly okay with my style of running the game", after all, they're excited for another go at it.

The DM gets to have fun too.

If you're not having fun, then this is where you need to focus in. Why aren't you having fun?

If you're not having fun because you feel that you are bad at DMing, the evidence seems to say otherwise. Having fun for you may just look like recognizing that your players enjoy what you are doing at the table.

But maybe you really just aren't having fun DMing. Maybe recognizing the fun your players are having isn't enough to make it fun for you. This is okay too. It is okay to no longer have fun doing something. DM burnout is a real thing. Maybe you just need a break. If this is the case, talk to your players about it. Tell them you need a break from being the DM. Remember - you don't owe them your DM services. It is okay to say no to another campaign.

It sounds like your players are having a great time, and this is the most important feature of a good DM. If recognizing this is all it takes to encourage you back into the DM seat and have fun yourself, all the better. But it's also okay to put your own fun first, and figuring this out may require some self-examination and communication with your players.

Openly communicate with your players about how you can improve.

My DM and I do this after nearly every session. A few days after each session, we go over the last session. I ask things such as, "How could I improve as a player over this last session? What were some things you liked and disliked about how I played my character" Likewise, my DM asks similar questions, and we give each other honest feedback.

I can remember one session where my DM felt it was a particularly terrible session. He was very hard on himself and felt like he totally failed us. It also happened to be one of my favorites, and unanimously praised as one of our funnest games by the rest of our party. But you never know unless you have this conversation.

Approach your players and ask, "What did you guys think of the campaign? Are there any things about my style of DMing you think I should work on and improve?" Their answers might surprise you.

Perhaps it's someone else's turn to DM

Alternatively, if you really don't want to DM again (which is okay), approach your players and say something like, "Hey friends, I'm really not feeling up to running another campaign right now." Again, it is important that you are having fun as well, and being honest with them is better than silently dreading every session as you prepare.

This question may also have some helpful perspective: How can a GM prevent growing disillusioned with their own game?

Answer 2

TL;DR: Find out what kind of game they want to play

For your next campaign, as you begin planning, try taking preventative measures and finding out what kind of game they want to play.

First off, you’re doing fine.

If they are having fun, you are a good GM already. If you aren’t having fun or are getting burned out, that’s a little harder to fix but definitely can be dealt with (refer to the other excellent answers for help on that).

Second, you can prevent feeling like they do not like your GMing style by asking them what kind of game they want to play.

Since you are starting a new campaign, I would suggest starting with a session 0. This lets you discuss the game itself and what you all want from it. For many issues, I like using the Same Page Tool during a session 0, and in this case I would especially talk through the questions about the player and GM roles.

Ask them how much they want to follow a plot, and how much they want to do their own thing. That answer can help inform your planning for the next time. If they just want to follow the plot wherever you take them, and you are willing to give them plot, that’s fine (some days, I really wish my players would at least travel in the same direction as the rails).

Advice from someone with the same problem

I have done very similar things to you. I have pages of lore and I recently made a 30 page journal that the villain wrote as a prop that the players for that game didn’t even find. Lore and adventures are fine.

Writing all that is an investment, and if you enjoy it, that’s great. My journal helps me play the villain in a consistent way, and I loved writing it. I also have a very clear end to that campaign, especially for the last couple major events. For another one I’m in, that one is a lot of me going “okay, here’s the adventure, play through it”. I sometimes feel like I’m railroading them. I don’t think any of them have ever noticed it. When you notice you are railroading them, but the players never notice, you’re doing it well.

A railroad plot just means you have an end you want to happen. It doesn’t have to mean making them do the plot exactly. That’s one of the worst cases. Railroading can be “you’re going to go get this and bring it back to the queen”, which I do a lot. It doesn’t mean you have to force them to do it a certain way. Having an end goal is a very good part of having a plot, and it doesn’t have to be called railroading.

Conclusion

You’re doing well, whether you are “railroading” or not, if the players are having fun (hint: if they say they are having fun and don’t look like they want to stab you, they’re probably having fun).

Answer 3

If you're having fun and they're having fun, then everything is fine and you don't need to quit.

I have some experience with stepping down as the DM and letting one of my players take over as a novice DM, and I can tell you that novice DMs are always really bad. So it's very unlikely that one of your players would be better than you.

If you feel like you're unsatisfied with the way you're generating the plot, it might be a good idea to try one of the existing published adventures and just tweak it in minor ways. This is what I do and I find it works well.